Something has been bugging me these past few days. It’s been keeping me awake until the wee hours of the morning and I couldn’t just put my finger on it. Or I probably already know what it is… I just keep on denying it.
If you’ve read my previous post, you’d know that I’ve been here in Vietnam for three months now. I’ve had lots of ups and downs, hits and misses, and I’m thankful for every one of them. Despite all the life drama, my heart is actually in a good place.
But as the Christmas season draws nearer and nearer, my heart is also becoming more and more restless. This is the first time I’m spending Christmas away from home. I honestly didn’t want to write about this. But I have to. Because I just need to acknowledge the fact that I’m missing home so much.
I miss mama and her constant reminders and sermons. I miss her food. I miss how she would nag me about cleaning my room and then just proceeds to cleaning it herself. I miss papa and our discussions about politics, entertainment, business and basically just about anything under the sun. I miss how supportive he is of my food experiments. I miss his childlike enthusiasm. I miss saying the words mama and papa. I miss cooking for them. I miss seeing them even though we don’t always see eye to eye on some things.
I’m trying to write my last post for 2014 but I keep on typing and erasing and typing and erasing again and again.
I guess whatever I want to write about, it all boils down to the fact that I learned and discovered a whole lot of things this year. From the right mindset of saving up and my thirst for traveling to trying to become a better daughter to my parents and planning ahead… and a lot of precious stuff in between.
I’m still starting to learn the ropes of handling my finances well in a way that will work for my needs, wants and life’s emergencies. I fervently hope I’m doing a good job. Maybe I am because my mom was happy with her Christmas gift last night? 😉
Like what I said above, this is my last post for this year. I can already see a better, brighter, more challenging year ahead. And I’m just so exhilarated that I will be able to start 2015 with an all-expense paid company event on January 2-3 in Bacolod. I honestly think my new bosses are the awesomest people on earth right now. Some people might think that having an online job is meh compared to a “real” office work, but trust me. Do whatever makes you happy and gives you the time and financial freedom you need.
Looking at my 2015 calendar right now… it amazes me how many days are already marked off for my already planned lagaws… And I just booked plane tickets for me and my friends’ Baguio-Vigan-Laoag trip in April next year! Gaaah! I’m so excited! So many beautiful things are coming my way. I can’t wait to finally live them.